After a long unenjoyable day at the job I would follow the common routine of coming home to nice things that didn’t fulfill me.
Even though the job was over, I always believed in my heart that real work needed to be accomplished.
My past was consumed with watching useless TV shows, playing games, and other things to distract my mind so I would run in circles.
I reached the point where I was tired of passively watching other people succeed in life and instead of envying them in ignorance I began emulating their mindset for creating change.
Also, the desire to contribute to life in the way that they do.
Parts of my life began to change from the inside out in small ways when I stopped watching programmed TV.
I learned to listen more, ask better questions, and to not believe everything I see or I’m told.
It reached the point where I couldn’t justify sitting passively in front of a screen.
I enjoyed being active, traveling, participating, and living a productive life.
I told a family member that I’ll watch TV when I’m on TV or write the shows myself.
Occasionally a TV will turn on at my place when people visit and I don’t mind it.
I focus more on the family member or friend watching their favorite show to escape their pain whether they know they are in pain or not.
Many people will be reminded of that pain when they go to their jobs and are told what they can and can’t do and what they can and can’t say, etc.
It would feel like all of my energy was spent on the job for someone else’s needs but the time left to myself was just enough to do nothing.
It wasn’t that I desired to do nothing, it was that I felt drained in all areas as if I was wasting my time and wasting my life.
Maybe I had what other Millennial’s wanted in their heart but didn’t know how to live.
Which was the ability to cut mediocre routines out of one’s life and to begin expressing oneself.
The best people that I’ve ever met were leaders that had the ability to express themselves and weren’t worried about whether others agreed with them or not.
I respected them even when they made mistakes for taking responsibility for the mistakes, taking risks, being confident, and defending others when things appear to go bad.
They seem to always have an ability to move forward whether the world was with them or against them.
Do you wait for people to agree with your desires before you can move forward?
If so, how long must you wait in order to feel bold enough, good enough, and sure enough?
Also, if you wait to feel bold enough then who can guarantee that the momentum of your boldness will last until you succeed?
What good would it be seeing an all-star athlete only move, perform, or play their game when people cheered for them?
Similar to an athlete, there are times where you practice and times where you perform.
Your performance can be your feedback, meaning the testing ground to see if the practicing that you chose is effective enough to win.
Are there areas in your life where you refuse to make progress unless you know or hear someone cheering for you?
Have you ever seen someone have the loudest cheers, the most support, and abundant resources yet still fail?
So who can guarantee or assure you your success?
No one, only you and it will be your choice on how you choose to approach this challenge.
If being smart was enough in life then you couldn’t look over at the small offices next to you and see smart people sitting there until they’re sixty-five.
You can be called the smartest, toughest, strongest, most brilliant, and all these great things, but can you be effective where it matters most?
Can you produce change in areas of your life without being told, directed, or cheered to do so?
Sometimes in life peoples cheers will come to help the momentum that you already have established to help you continue moving forward.
With some saying I’ll help you, but how have you helped yourself first?
How can a millennial break out of habits of having low energy, not understanding their purpose in life, and wanting for things that they do not currently have?
Should we beat ourselves up for the things that we want and do not have?
Or should we rely on our own strengths, the strengths of others, and be more resourceful with the things that are available to us right now?
The feeling of mediocrity can be heard and felt by individuals across many educational backgrounds, from the high to low salary earners, and in different environments.
I once knew a medical professional, a well-educated man with over sixteen years of experience that would beat himself up constantly because he wasn’t rich yet.
The belief had been taught to him, ingrained in him, recited by him, and accepted by him to feel like anything he achieved in life was never good enough.
That belief would eventually lead to his suicide as the people he chose to surround himself with, spoke and assured him of a bright rich future.
Though he was assured of riches, educated, earned significant pay, and was loved and surrounded by friends with family.
Death came to him as all he could see was a life full of failure, and a life of nothing.
You could hear it in his words, in the way he carried himself, yet he was always known to be the happiest person.
Maybe I noticed these things about him because I was aware that even though people smile doesn’t mean they’re happy.
You can be happy in public, and in many areas except the one area in your life that haunts you and causes you pain.
The frustrating pain of not being good enough to get rich,or solving the problem of success no matter how smart you are, and how things still haven’t turned around.
It’s not uncommon to meet or see people with a lot of nice things but feel empty because they have the belief that nothing they have achieved is ever good enough.
For instance, I meet people who celebrate getting their bachelor’s degree and someone will say to them congratulations now you must get your Masters in order to be successful.
It’s like the rabbit hole never ends.
Then I’ve met MD’s, and PhD’s that beat themselves up for not being rich yet.
When a person with no education and no job skills would dream of having their discipline, endurance, and their paycheck.
Maybe life is more than a position and a paycheck?
I’ve met many resourceful individuals that have never earned more than $40,000 per year yet their net worth, ability to act on opportunities presented, and the choice of leaving an inheritance without debt to their grandchildren is something to be envied.
In this situation, who can we call rich?
Is it the person with very little that leaves a lot to the ones they say they love, or the person with a lot but leaves very little to the ones they say they love?
I had to take a deep look inside and wondered why I too was affected with the culture sting of not being good enough no matter what I achieved.
What I found was that it wasn’t enough to just stop being distracted with television, I needed to contribute something, I needed to create.
I found pain when I adopted, accepted, and recited the culture mindset of seeing what I can get out of life.
Meaning, what home can I buy for me and my kids, what job is best for me and my family, what school is best for me and my kids?
The list goes on and on.
My thoughts transitioned into what homes can I build for my neighbors, what jobs can I provide for my neighbors, what schools can I build for my neighbors, what books can I write for the world, what can I contribute?
I was taught and trained to look for a job with good benefits, but how can I benefit the world when I deny my self-expression and do not express my authentic self?
I’m trained to express the desires, needs, traditions, and goals of my employer and to keep my mouth shut.
To obey and ask to take leave, to wait on lunch, and to spend the majority of my week practicing the habits of a child.
Does it feel like being an adult waiting for the weekend to live yet waking up on Monday hating the sound of an alarm clock?
I’ve stood in grocery store lines seeing six figure earners frantically playing lotto tickets in order to free their bodies and their souls from their jobs.
You could see the frustration on their faces and that nothing was ever good enough.
I saw them week after week as I would be in there to purchase my weekly groceries and wondered that if I ever stopped seeing them; would that mean that they found their rich happiness through the lottery or decided to end it all because they believed that nothing was ever good enough?
There has to be a way to take whatever time that I’ve been given and to be effective with it.
If I was willing to invest the majority of my time into a job and all that it entails then I must have that same discipline in building, leading, and living the life that I desire.
I choose to see the world as a place that wants people with a desire to succeed to become successful and not to look over the world as a place of unanswered prayers, confusion, uncertainty, and frustrated desires.
The desire to end mediocrity, whether it be in feeling or belief or both is a life changing decision.
Meaning that even though your life may not instantly change in that moment, something in your life changed the moment you made the decision and it’s up to you to realize that.
Whatever fear you have been taught to believe or programmed to follow may not be in your best interests or produce your best self.
Life goes on whether you choose to fully live it or not.
The beaches, the sites to see, the destinations will still exist whether you stare at them passively through a TV screen or visit them in person to experience it for yourself.
For some, having a TV screen or an image is good enough which is fine for them, but for many Millennial’s life is meant to be lived and not just fantasized about.
Have I become an adult to celebrate three week vacations when as a child I had two month vacations plus holidays?
To compare my life to a child is not to remind myself of a past that I cannot change but to remember a standard that I may or may not have deviated from.
To know that I am capable of being happy, making decisions, taking risks, and improving areas of life.
I would ask myself if I value family then why do I spend so much time away from them on the job?
Also, I say that I value family but I only see them for the holidays which causes stress.
What happened to the things that I value such as freedom and what steps can I do to transition from mediocrity to measurable, attainable, trackable success?
The success of self -expression, being authentic, and having freedom to invest time with the ones I truly care about.